Sooo It's been a crazy month with the start of school. I've laughed, stresed and even shed tears. I had to drop AP Bio because it was too stressful along with my other classes and i am utterly thankful that i did. Now i have a bit more time to focus. And maybe i can add some more years back onto my life lol.

So i've gotten a hint that alot of people voted for me for Class artist. I hope i get it. I'm nervous though because there are some other amazing artists in my school.

Anyways i'm nervous because work is coming to an end soon. I'm excited for fright fest but i'm ore excited about Halloween. I'm stuck between being a pirate, a wonderland queen, a ninja, or a female version of Sora in his halloween town outfit! I can't decide but i've got various ideas lurking the corners of my twisted mind.

Anyways hopefully October will be better than sept. After watching a new Ep. of Glee i feel a bit more optimistic ^ ^

Ja ne All!


P.S. my mood is not rage...this stupid thing was taking too long to chnage

SO I'm really upset right now. First of all I was pissed last week when i found out there was no new chapter for Naruto. So I had read all these crazy spoilers and most of them matched so i figured they had to be correct. Now this morning i got up and went and found out the name of the chapter so i could look it up and read it. Everything was happening exactly as the spoilers mentioned. However they failed to mention the fact that Sasuke was being controlled by...hmm i'm guessing Madara.

WHAT THE EFF!

Are you kidding me? Please tell me i'm not going crazy and that other people saw the big shadow thingy behind Sasuke with the clawed hand that was sorta holding him in his palm! Then Karin has to go and say that Sasuke's chakra is darker than in his second curse stage. Second Suigetsu says he told Sasuke not to kill anyone. Hold on, reverse, rewind, pause, replay! what? Suigetsu...if Suigetsu knows not to kill people shouldn't Sasuke? I mean a while back it was Sasuke who gave Suigetsu the order not to kill anyone. And then back when he was training with Orochimaru he refused to kill any of the people he fought. I mean come on. Am i being delusional or does this all point to the fact that he was...er is at this moment in time being controlled.

It has to be. Madara should know well enough that Sasuke can't kill any kage. Especially a Kage with Guards beside him. So why not fuse him with a little bit of his power, take over his body and make it look like Sasuke is doing all the work. Make him take the blame. Which brings me to my next point. Now Sasuke is really screwed and I know there are alot of people who will be like 'ew hes an asshole he should be killed'...ladida. But I still happen to see some good left in him. He's just a bit confused...and it doesn't help that Madara is twisting and feeding off his anger. That just makes me more pissed. And the sad thing is...if he is being controlled how will anyone know? They'll think it was all him. God this Sucks!

IN other good news, how beastly did Kakashi and Yamato's enterance seem? Man i love Kakashi...he's so hot! lol I wonder what Madara is going to tell Naruto about Sasuke.

Oh and on the last chapter i must say again, WHAT THE EFF? Jesus can Sai mind his own damn buisness. But at the same time i'm glad he told Sakura because now she knows she can't rest the weight of the world on Naruto's shoulder's all the damn time. It's just not fair. Which brings me to my next point. I am a serious NaruHina fan. Yes eat it all you NaruSaku lovers, i don't give a damn! lol I just reread the chapter where Hinata confesses. Now that is someone who understands that Naruto is human and even though she didn't do much, she atleast tried to help instead of sitting on the sidelines and watching. God I love that girl, she is absolutely adorable. Now i really can't wait to see what happens when the two meet up again, because effing Kishi failed to have Naruto and Hinata have a little chat after her confession...so it's still unaddressed unfortunately.

*sigh* ah well, i feel i'm losing steam. I'm gonna go and post a chapter or Fanfic before I go to work so please let me know what you think about this little rant. Do you agree, disagree, do you even know what the hell i'm talking about? lmao.

Oh well

Ja ne!

Okay so I went away a week ago to the Dominican Republic. It was so much fun, I had a blast with my best friend and her family. But I also missed my mom. I was happy to come back and see her, but all the crap started back up the moment I got home.

Hell I wasn't even home, I had to go house sit at my aunts house because she was away at a wedding. So i didn't get to even sleep in my own bed. It wasn't that bad but that's not what i wanted to talk about...*sigh* I've had this whole plan in my head about what I've been planning to do for college for months now.

But I've kept it to myself because i wanted to make sure i could make it would work. However my mom has been hounding me about it again today and so i told her my idea earlier than i had been planning to.

You see I've got a lot of money save for when i turn eighteen granted to me after an accident I had when i was little. My mom wants to use it to get a car and she's going to give me hers. However I've been planning on using the money to put towards my college funds. I don't want to have to take out a loan or any of that stupid shit. I'm also saving up money from each of my pay checks to put towards my funds. I plan on having a job while im at college too. ( I know you are all probably wondering where this is leading but I'm getting there).

I'm just trying to show her that I am trying to be responsible. I mean who wants to be in debt after they get out of school. At least I'll have a head start on things. I can get a car another time...but my education seems more important don't you think?

Anyways there are a few schools I've been looking at, but one specifically in Chicago. I've read up a little on it, and it has a great English program. I want to major in English by the way, and become an art minor. But anyways, I digress. My mom wants me to stay close, which is understandable but she's thrown crazy ideas at me. Like a month or so ago she suggested that i go to Princeton. I know I am not Princeton material. I am trying to look for a college that will fit me and my educational needs. That sounds reasonable right? I don't know, I'm just *sigh* I'm fed up.

Today at dinner she asked me a simple harmless question about my love life...which sort of exists at this moment *hides*. But you see I'm a very private person ( I know it doesn't seem like this right now but trust me i am). It's hard for me to talk about anything to anyone, except my cousin, but he and I have grown up together. But hell there are even things i can't tell him. My friends don't even know that much about what goes on in my relationships, its just embarrassing for me to talk about. Which leads to my mom freaking out on me. She told me that I am seventeen years old and i should be able to talk to her about topics like that.

Here's where it gets tricky. She told me that one of my best friends, the one I went away with, has a great relationship with her mother. And then proceeded to ask why i couldn't tell her anything. My mom and I have had this conversation numerous times. She tells me I don't talk to her. I tell her that I tell her things when i have something to say. Hell even my friends step dad knows that. He flat out said it to my mom, that if i don't have anything to say, I wont talk. Tell me how a man I hardly know, and only see once in a while when I'm over my friends house, knows that but my mom can't grasp that concept and I've been this way for seventeen years of my life?

Also heres another point, She compaired me to my friend. I'm NOT my friend. I love my friend Alee like she was my sister, just like my other best friend Chanel. But I am not them. I'm not my fucking god sister who seems to be perfect in my mother's eyes. Yes they might have a great relationship with their moms, but that's because they are more open about things. I'm just shy, i'm a private person, i choose what i want people to know and what i don't want people to know. But...but does that mean there is something wrong with me? I wish sometimes i could talk to her like them, but i can't. It's hard for me. But that must sound silly right? Maybe i need help or something? I don't know. I'm just sick of her always making me feel guilty and worthless because i can't talk to her the way she WANTS me too.

I feel horrible because moments after she up and tells me that i can go live in chicago if i want. And I was like It's just a school i'm looking at mom. But she said that after i turn eighteen she won't have to deal with me anymore, that she'll be done taking care of me. I feel stupid for crying, but that hurt. Why would someone...especially a mother ever say that. Me not talking apparently means i'm this horrible block of ice that can't be cracked and...ugh it just hurts. So much.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Please...if anyone is reading this, please respond. I need some serious advice...i just feel so lost.

I know I've got an hour or so to go before '09 hits but I know I won't be online when the clock strikes so I wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year!

Hey!

First of all I just want to wish everyone a Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year.

So oh man, I haven't done this in a while. It's pretty depressing to be honest. But anyhow, I haven't been updating pictures lately because:

1.) Been kinda busy
2.) Too lazy ^ ^
3.) I've been writing a bunch of stories.

Speaking of, just a few days ago I started my first SasuSaku fic (sorry for all those non Sasusaku shippers) on Fanfiction.net. It's called Once Upon a Dare(my sn is SweetMadnes92). I am currently working on chapter 4 if anyone cares to check it out.

The other story happens to be a side story. I'm hoping that if I actually finish it then maybe I can work on getting it published. I know it's a long shot but hey a girl can dream right?

On another note I just finished reading Naruto Chapter 430. I don't know why but it seemed so epic the first time I read it. Maybe it was because I was (and still am) listening to Fearless by Brand X Music, which is such an epic song that by default reading anything to that song would probably make it even more epic. >.> Anyways it was a good chapter, just not as realistic as I had hoped for. I mean I imagened that when Naruto came back he wouldn't have been as calm as he was. I mean come on, you come back to see your precious home and village distroyed. Maybe I'm the only dumbass that would have cried. But then again...Sakura wasn't crying...not trying to say that she's a crybaby or anything cuz I love Sakura (she's one of my fav character's)but she's probably the most realistic character in the manga and show. So *shrugs* I'm not sure what to think. And just because they showed Kakashi's body, does that mean he's alive or what? I want answers people! >.>

Also...what the hell happened to Team Gai? I mean I'll admit until Kishi showed them a few chapters back I forgot they weren't even there. But now we haven't seen anything from them. So Kishi...what happened? Seriously I'm starting to become disappointed with this manga and eventually the show. The only anime I've seen so far that blew me out of the water was probably Code Geass. I know there are others...but that one sticks out in my mind the most. Anyways I digress.

So what happened to Sasuke? To be honest for a while there I thought he was going to magically show up at the same time as Naruto, possibly form a team and fight Pein together. I know far fetched but seriously I can't tell anymore with Kishi. *sigh* I'm just not sure about anything anymore. But really I could have sworn when Naruto returned to the village it would have been alot more depressing. It's like Pein's attempts to cause heartache were completely worthless and futile. T T oh and is Tsunade going to die? Will Sasuke, Sakura and Naruto become the new Legendary Sannin? Oh yea and what happened to Kabuto/Orochi? Did I blank out or something or is he still around? *taps chin thoughtfully* who knows, who knows. So many questions and no answers. *shakes head*

So what do you guys think? I'm curious. Also quick and completely random question but I swear everytime I hear The Fray (Such an amazing band! ^ ^) I can see Naruto singing to them. I don't know why...it just seems like if Naruto were to ever do Karaoke he would sing to The Fray. I dunno maybe i'm crazy *shrugs* Oh well.

Ja ne

-Bankotsuluva7
-SweetMadness
-Myah ^ ^